Sexy AF

Sexy. This is not a word I associated with myself for many years. Growing up I was a thin child, a chubby pre-teen, a thin teenager, a heavy 20-something year old, and since my 30’s my weight has been pretty consistent and what I like to call “kinda average” (currently size 14). But sexiness isn’t

Hair Today – Gone Tomorrow!

I have this habit of putting my headphones on when I am on my computer. For some reason it helps me focus. They aren’t noise canceling headphones, just big, clunky, “recording” headphones you’d find in a music studio. I sit here at my table, with my big headphones on, open up my laptop and enter

Label Me Bigender

Labels, labels, fucking labels. I’ve always had a love/hate relationship with labels. On one hand, labels helped me feel less alone as a lesbian woman. On the other hand, it also made me feel pigeonholed and typecast. Let’s see if I can explain this…… Growing up the majority of my friends resembled someone. I had

A Covid-19 Tale

I contracted Covid-19 the weekend of November 28th I believe. I had made the trip to Boston for a date and grabbed dinner at a local restaurant in Chelsea. The next few days that followed included intense fatigue, massive headaches and slight stomach distress. I thought I had a sinus infection up until Wednesday, December

It Drives Me Wild

Today I am going to write from more of my masculine side and talk about all the things that women do (especially my girlfriend), that drive a bigender/boi/butch lesbian – such as myself – wild. There is this beautiful fusion that happens between masculine women and the feminine women who love them. Butch/femme dynamic I

Free Verse at 3:53 AM

In this moment I feel like the captain of a ship, watching my lights flickering as the wind churns outside. For as furious as the wind blows I am steady at the helm. I think. Sure, my eyes are stinging from exhaustion but my mind is as awake as an alpine swift. Harry Styles is

Just One of the Guys

I owe so much to the guys I deemed as “pretty boys” growing up. While my friends were thumbing through issues of Seventeen Magazine and Cosmo, admiring the pretty women they’d see, I was thumping through celebrity and rock magazines admiring the guys I wanted to emulate. In some compacity I DID have crushes on

For The Love of Music

As far back as I can remember, music has always been an important part of my life. Both my parents loved music, so it was always on growing up. When I was a child my mother got just as involved with my favorite “teen idols.” She took my best friend and I to see Tiffany

Body Dysmorphia

Body dysmorphia – People with this disorder may frequently examine their appearance in a mirror, constantly compare their appearance with that of others, and avoid social situations or photos. I love taking photos. I hate photos taken of me. I don’t just hate photos/videos taken of me, I have a legit panic attack and will

Indigo Girls

It is 3:39 AM and I should be sleeping, but alas I am wide awake. This has been a regular occurrence since Covid, well, changed the world a year ago! However, as much I will regret not sleeping now in a few hours, I am grateful to have this time to not only catch up